It's more than a physical and emotional reaction. Mentally I am infused. Relapsing doesn't describe the way I fell into the palm of your hand again. A record playing, doesn't do justice in comparison to the circles I spun while you enjoyed my entertainment. J. Saunders
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The hardest part in my life wasn’t letting go of all the terrible things you had done to me. But moving on from what was, to what should be. The ruins that were left behind, I rebuilt. Working effortlessly not just on my home, or my mind, but my heart. My soul. I became bitter … Continue reading Page 307
Challenges
I often find that people who are unable to talk about themselves, may not reflect enough. Some say, I can talk about myself too easily, but after publishing a book with over 400 pages of different situations and events I've felt or been through, suppose it takes the edge off. Truthfully, even after 400 pages … Continue reading Challenges
Sorry
All women usually ask for is an apology from their ex and to be honest I’ve never understood why. It’s like the need for closure after telling him to leave you alone. Why hurt yourself just to hear the man who hurt you say, some pathetic apology when he obviously didn’t care enough about you … Continue reading Sorry
Only Love
Not for anything but I'll probably never stop loving you Love is not a thought It's not debatable nor optional It's an emotional substance and without question will take over To survive we pretend and avoid Although manageable, my love never leaves Never dies Buried within my heart I'll play our memories like a movie … Continue reading Only Love
Already Knew
Of course I miss you and of course I want to contact you I'm just over drinking a bottle of wine to get the courage to tell you what's on my mind just to end up disappointed over the same shit I told my heart weeks ago J. Saunders
Door
You don't deserve to occupy this much of my mind while running in and out of my life like there is a revolving door with your name on it J. Saunders
Rules
You have to let go. Even when you don’t want to. Even when you know, it’s going to break your heart a little. You can’t fall in love with a lover, those are the rules. J. Saunders
Feel
I feel you and I know that sounds crazy to hear but if you think that's overwhelming imagine how I feel - Excerpt from a book I may never finish J. Saunders
Past
Letting go and forgiving those who have wronged me, has never been my problem when it comes to looking back on the past. But rather being able to forgive myself. To let go and to tell myself that the decisions I made at that time in my life, were the best ones I could've made … Continue reading Past