These days... it feels like I'm begging for you to disappointment me I'm searching for all the clues you've left behind to remind myself, this isn't real With all the reasons to let go, my heart begs for mercy instead Begging for the fleeting moments that'll hurt me, only to turn them into poetry 08.24.18 … Continue reading Poetry
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Challenges: Panic Attack
Standing in the center of my shower shaking, unable to stand up straight any longer. Trying to grip a slippery bathroom wall I forced myself to turn off the water. Forced myself to get out. I felt like every fiber in me was going to fall to the ground. Soaking wet I stumbled to my … Continue reading Challenges: Panic Attack
One Day
When my words no longer express the emotions within When I no longer ache for you When the tears run dry and my heart says your name less When that day comes, the one day I feel at peace without you I want you to know that it took every fiber in my body to … Continue reading One Day
Page 277 Second Chances
Letting go of someone you love, is life’s way of reminding you, never to build your home in someone else. Someone please tell me, how do I know, who to give myself to? My love is not a coin toss, but we throw ourselves at people, hoping they throw themselves back at us. J. Saunders … Continue reading Page 277 Second Chances
Liars
Love doesn't lie People do J. Saunders
Page 407
I spent a chunk of my life living for someone else that I forgot what living for myself meant. I learned that lesson when the person I was living for, was no longer mine to live through. Everything I knew, was no longer accessible to me. What were the basic requirements to live for yourself? … Continue reading Page 407
Day 147 Without You
It's hard, when tomorrow is never promised nor should be taken for granted but I can't help but waste away a day hoping tomorrow never comes, for it's another day without you. And, I know, I deserve more. And, I know... if someone wanted to be with you, they would be. It's never that simple … Continue reading Day 147 Without You
Want and Need
I'm aware I don't need you and that I simply want you, I can survive without you. However... the way I spin out of control; crave and demand, yearn and feel pain, unwavering emotions I cannot contain... tells me, you're more than a want, less than a forever need J. Saunders
Mr. Sun
Mr. Sun, I belong to you but I am in love with the moon. I feel your rays of heat and passion, while complaining I am always tired because I stay up during the midnight hours just to see him. I feel the magic and creative energy, writing better poetry during those hours. He is … Continue reading Mr. Sun
Women
The women who remind you that a man will not make you whole, are the same ones, who felt their entire being shattered because they fell in love and now have nothing to show for it. Second Chances, J. Saunders