Habits

I said, I wouldn't let old habits get the best of me With a million reasons to let you go I pour whiskey over ice and light a cigarette while answering your call Knowing you're my vice I'd wear your shirt over night unable to give you up All before you show up at my … Continue reading Habits

Poetry

These days... it feels like I'm begging for you to disappointment me I'm searching for all the clues you've left behind to remind myself, this isn't real With all the reasons to let go, my heart begs for mercy instead Begging for the fleeting moments that'll hurt me, only to turn them into poetry 08.24.18 … Continue reading Poetry

Page 277 Second Chances

Letting go of someone you love, is life’s way of reminding you, never to build your home in someone else. Someone please tell me, how do I know, who to give myself to? My love is not a coin toss, but we throw ourselves at people, hoping they throw themselves back at us. J. Saunders … Continue reading Page 277 Second Chances

Page 407

I spent a chunk of my life living for someone else that I forgot what living for myself meant. I learned that lesson when the person I was living for, was no longer mine to live through. Everything I knew, was no longer accessible to me. What were the basic requirements to live for yourself? … Continue reading Page 407

Day 147 Without You

It's hard, when tomorrow is never promised nor should be taken for granted but I can't help but waste away a day hoping tomorrow never comes, for it's another day without you. And, I know, I deserve more. And, I know... if someone wanted to be with you, they would be. It's never that simple … Continue reading Day 147 Without You

Want and Need

I'm aware I don't need you and that I simply want you, I can survive without you. However... the way I spin out of control; crave and demand, yearn and feel pain, unwavering emotions I cannot contain... tells me, you're more than a want, less than a forever need J. Saunders