I fucked up. All I do is fuck up. It's a never ending story of how perfectly, imperfectly I am but so desperately wrong. I'm always apologizing, I must always be at fault. I am human and I try. I make mistakes and I fall. Yet, with you I am a walking disaster. From cloud … Continue reading Ruined
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Love Note
I miss you Mentally Emotionally Physically Trying to unravel me Learning my expressions Falling into you J. Saunders
Mind’s Made Up
I pick all the wrong men Not because I know, no better possibly, because everything that had seemed picture perfect, reminded me that nothing is perfect Too good, to be true is a foreign phrase for those who think they don’t deserve more I know, I deserve more Even after the men have picked and … Continue reading Mind’s Made Up
Empty
I never thought about fucking to fill the void and take the pain away Empty nights of suffering I'd put my lips to the bottle and drink another one away Smoke a little to remove the edge throughout my days As long as you were healing I knew my heart would manage I would crumble … Continue reading Empty
Dreamer
I dreamed of you last night It was horrifying to me I woke up confused and in tears You were gone, you disappeared The reflection of reality in my dreams is shattering My day has been emotional since Even in absence and pain you are still my muse J. Saunders
Soon
I deleted your existence on my phone Then removed you from my heart Piece by piece Eventually all the fragments of you will be gone J. Saunders
Who
Who was I to think you cared? Whatever we were, whatever we had, seems like a lie as my heart writes untold emotions. Who was I... to think you could care about me. J. Saunders
With
When I am with you the world is quiet. I am carefree and playful instead of defensive and serious. J. Saunders
Lost
Love is uncontrollable  even though I tried to stop it we clicked  and I got lost in it J. Saunders
Void
I miss you in ways I never imagined were possible You're a call away and still I refrain in case I get your voicemail or choke up with nothing to say I miss you aren't the words either when I'm unsure how to fill this void I currently feel since we ended J. Saunders