I cannot spend a day in life without my thoughts wondering off to you
Can’t eat, can’t sleep, no daily routine or habits can ease my mind
It’s beyond terrifying this need to want you
Unforceable enticements leave me stranded in a place I have no control over
I have no power or place here
Little by little, I beg for more before begging to be let go
No terms are mine, no rules were given, with so many mind traps I’m unsure if I’ll ever win
However, when I’m free I find myself lost without you, like Alice in Wonderland I lose myself to fall back into your trap
This is what I’ve become accustomed to
Please, don’t leave me like I suddenly belong somewhere else rather than with you around, the cycle of my mind won’t give up and I’m derailed until at ease
J. Saunders
